"Memories are nice, but that's all they are"

Shadows of the Moon , a book I read about a girl who has the ability to weave an illusion .

Now I wish I could do that , weave an illusion over my face to hide the fact that I’m crying inside .

I’m flamboyant and I smile like an idiot , I over exaggerate a lot just to hide the hurt inside me . 

I run in the rain for fun , when truthfully I use it to hide my tears . I say ” I understand ” a lot with a positive understanding attitude when truthfully I’m hurt and tempted to ask why .

” People see what they want to see ” - Shadows of the Moon

Does this mean they want to see me happy ? 

I say that dancing is the only thing that makes me happy when truthfully it’s an escape mechanism , I dance with emotion , I dance my heart out ; hoping , that someday people will get the hint . 

Just like when I sing , I sing with emotion , I sing my heart out .

Because one day .. Someone will see what they want to see .

A kid struggling to be free of burdens in which he does not know of .